Sadhana at the Sink
“When you meet a being who is centered you always know it. You always feel a kind of calm emanation. It always touches you in that place.”( pg.47)
I have no idea who the guy in the drawing on page 47 is, but I met him this week or at least it looked very much like him. The really interesting thing about it is that I hadn’t looked at page 47 yet when he showed up in my day.
The man was entirely present in a remarkable and memorable way.
It was the tenth day of the ten days allowed post-registration to get my car inspected and I was feeling a bit frantic in a too-much-to-do-too-little-time sort of way. I took a corner fast and swung the car up to the bay door of a quick-change oil place with a sign that said “We do State Inspections”. I was leaned over digging through my glove compartment looking for my registration papers while at the same time trying to call my son on my cell phone when he walked to the side of my car. After trying twice to open the window to speak with him (I had managed to open both back windows) I finally flung open the door in frustration and leaned out to talk. He was entirely present. He patiently listened to my crazy rambles. He then slowly and with intention compassionately explained that the shop was closing for the day and they wouldn’t be able to inspect my car.
It didn’t matter because that wasn’t really why I was there.
The contrast between his calm demeanor and my frenetic random expending of energy was so dramatic that I wanted to forget about the car inspection and ask him to go for a walk. He touched me in that place where I feel calm…that place that was waiting for me to return to after I was done doing my mad dash to nowhere. He helped me remember.
It seems this gentle man showed up in my life on just the right page…both literally and figuratively. He was a real-life example of how being that “calm center” can help others find it in themselves.
I kept seeing him in my mind’s eye and feeling that calm emanation and its effects on me. I also thought it ironic that he worked at quick change oil place. I love that the universe has a sense of humor!
Later that evening I had a small existential crisis while brushing my teeth. I had a moment where I felt like I moved completely into now and it startled me. For a split second I felt everything around me in me and vice-versa. Everything just was. Time didn’t stop. Time just was. I didn’t disappear and things around me didn’t melt away but there was a different quality to my perception.
Clearer and freer.
Maybe it happened because I started my tooth brushing that night by paying close attention to the process. I slowed down enough to notice how cool the tube felt in my hand and how the little ridges on the top gripped the fleshy part of my thumb and index finger as I applied pressure and twisted. I breathed in deeply the smell of peppermint as the white paste settled into the bristles of the wet brush the way wet sand held in a hand oozes through fingers.
I slowly looked up from the toothbrush and my eyes met my eyes in the mirror. Wow! I looked deeply into those eyes that looked into me. I wasn’t looking at me in the mirror and I wasn’t me looking in the mirror. It all just was.
“Is-ness” (pg 46). A fleeting glimpse of deep calm.
The pages of Be Here Now provide a framework for working with my everyday experiences with the intention of waking up and infuses it all with wonder and meaning.It all becomes sacred.
Thank you Ram Dass.
I have to share that as I was working on this page Todd Rundgren’s song “I Saw the Light” just happened to play on the radio. Seems appropriate.