Sitting on my porch, I can imagine the new skin under the old–I can imagine it peeling away in one smooth motion. I can see the successes, etc. All of the ideas and other play things of the ego.
I have great ideas, full of potential, lots of vivid, actionable details, when I’m sitting on the porch. Oh, the details of it all. . . it’s fun on the porch, overwhelming in real life if I don’t keep up. Must keep up with it all. Gotta rip the skin off the snake to get there faster!
Oh wait, that doesn’t work. But neither does not doing what is necessary to accomplish a particular goal. So the snake doesn’t just sit there and the skin falls away (pg 57) . . . they wiggle through branches and other rough stuff and it falls away as it’s ready, but not before, and nobody can push the snake to move. The new skin’s gotta be ready to let go of the old. That sounds familiar.
So again, I see permission to just be where we’re at, without messing around too much with judgment of where things are at . . . and balanced with intentional action that helps shed away layers (of the snake, or the onion on page 58). I wonder if that Tapasia fire burns the old skin away? I’m guessing so—it’s another example of it’s all the same thing, especially when you’re in the now with it.
So what to do while the skin is still clinging on (or our ego clinging to the old skin)? I think there’s lots of ideas: sit still and breathe, find something to love, experience real gratitude, compassion, practice karma yoga . . . and yes, sitting still is still doing something to help moulting—it IS rubbing up against something rough enough to clean off the old; try just breathing and sitting still for 10 minutes and see—the ‘ants in the pants’ feeling, or intrusive thoughts? All branches that help us moult. Already get a calm, present feeling of the now? Great! Then moulting is happening already—we have plenty of layers to watch peel back, so there’s no hurry on this one. Just love the beloved until the two are one—Bhakti. So is waiting for the moulting to moult Bhakti?
I feel like if anybody can read about this, and feel a little moment of peace . . . even just a brief silence, an empty space is opened where we can feel love. And that space grows at the pace it grows—we can relax and unfold while finding love in whatever walk past. I think Maharajji wants us all to find love. Simply find love, or Be Love Now (….until you and the beloved become one). When we’re so full of love that our skin can no longer contain us? We moult.
I am grateful that I can be brave and creative on my porch, and expand that courage and creativity in whatever time it takes (this blog is part of that expansion for me). I like the idea of moving around to ‘encourage’ the layers to be dropped—to invite transformation though intentional action and meditation (invite it, not force it). This blog is one of the branches that I’m brushing against. I’m thankful for this place.
Another James Taylor line that I love:
“The secret of life is enjoying the passage of time”
Learning to enjoy the passage of time takes moulting. We uncover this secret through lovingkindness for ourselves, and all around us.
PS 10 minutes after I posted the above: I want to share with y’all some of the transformations that happen for me real-time. I woke up with a sore throat (allergies) and a bit of a headache–not in super soft place. After I slowed down, read BHN a little, then moved beyond the discomfort to post from heart, all of a sudden (no kidding) I’m walking around whistling/singing “All you need is Love.” Once I became aware of this, I perked up and realized that the headache was gone, and the throat is still sore, but not bad enough to keep me from singing. I really am loving this experience!! Thank you.