This magical mystery tour of the life we all live keeps me in a constant state of wonder and awe. I’ve been thinking about the fragility of my human body and mind and the eternal nature of my soul and how moving into my heart seems to bring it all together.
It is as if the heart bridges the gap between the temporal and the eternal…not only bridges the gap…it is it all.
Om Kali Om Kali Om Kali Om
I am sitting amidst the chaos of a house half-packed chanting with Bhagavan Das from his “Now” CD…
“Jai Kali Ma, Jai Kali Ma, take from me all that is not free…”
Anytime I’ve felt the need to accelerate the burn, dive in for the ‘crisp trip’…when the veils part enough and I see the show isn’t the whole story it is then I call out to Kali to bring it on.
This usually happens when disillusionment is brought on by the implosion of some expectation of how my life ‘should’ be happening.
She brings grace in the form of chaos. Sometimes I need that fierce grace.
The Mahanirvana Tantra says: “Just as all colors disappear in black, so all names and forms disappear in her.”
The energy that seduces and induces desires and then swallows them completely.
She is it all.
I love the magic and have have grown to respect the madness for all of the energy it carries.
Letting that shakti burn away defenses and pretenses leaves me raw and vulnerable and open to receive.
She brings grace in the form of chaos and then is there to pick up the pieces.
The LOVE…ever present “Beyond the Beyond” it awaits.
Resting in that love feels good.
“The feel is real” as Bhagavan Das says.
Jai Ma Durga!
Chanting Hey Ma Durga in a room full of people with Krishna Das brings me to tears every time because I feel us all…like one collective primal soul singing out to the universe from a place of tenderness and pain about the almost unbearable beauty of all that is.
I’m posting the following from the liner notes of his CD Breath of Heart because I think it is so beautiful and speaks to the message. (I hope this is ok with KD.)
Surround me with your loving arms…hold me in your heart.
Let me know that I am loved
and that I can love.
Show me that no matter where I go
That I come and go in You.
I am never out of your loving presence.
That you are the smile behind the smile,
the touch behind the touch
The kiss behind the kiss…
You are the constant presence that I forget until I remember
and when I remember my Self, I remember You.
I sing your Name. What else can I think of? You ARE Love.
And I AM You.
Thank you Krishna Das and Bhagavan Das for singing my heart open.