She fell into the deep space between the words and was met by the unopened hand of fate.
At times I have let go into the what-is-ness, the OM, the void …free falling, unfettered into now. Going nowhere and everywhere all at once.
Moments that moved form the “form into the formless ” pg 93
Once when I was about 17-years-old I was riding on a bus. I’d been meditating lots and feeling really free. I was at the back of the bus enjoying the ride one moment and then… there was no time and I was feeling incredible, heart-bursting love for all of the faces around me. And then… there was no me looking at that but just the LOVE. I was it and it was me…all of it.
Another time…standing outside the Dakota building on Central Park West just days after John Lennon died. Thousands of voices sung through the tears … “all we are saying, is give peace a chance”. My heart was broken open both by the deep grief I was feeling and the tsunami of love in the aftermath of the earth quaking news of his death. I felt all of us as one heart singing out from the same soul place.
Krishna Das chanting me into beyond the beyond with Hey Ma Durga or Bhagavan Das taking me to the edge and back with deep, rhythmic, trance-y , incantational Jai Kali Ma
All of it a journey to my heart.
Why this matters is because it opens my heart to a deep compassion for all of us and helps inform the way I live my life.
In all of these moments “something gets so esencey you feel you are touching God”. (Pg 92).And in that space there is nothing to do. It just IS. And we all are it.
Moving from Form to Formless…from Being Here Now to Being Love Now.
For me, the pure ideas…the essency part of what is manifest was the bridge. Those essency parts were accessed by going fully into and beyond the form. Complete presence. I only get there by surrendering to Grace…by getting out of my own way.
It’s like going in through the out door.
Sometimes it happens through joy…sometimes through pain.
IT HAS HAPPENED NOW.
NO MORE WONDERING ABOUT THE WHEN OR HOW OF SUCH MOMENTS.
ANOTHER STEP TOWARD LIFE’S FULL EXPRESION OF KARMIC MAYHEM.
NEVER WOULD I HAVE IMAGINED THE MAGNITUDE OF THE FORCE OF SUCH AN INVISIBLE WIND THAT WOULD BLOW FROM FATE’S OVALLED MOUTH
TO SEND ME SOARING..FEET LONG SINCE FORGETTING THE PRESS OF EARTH
LIFTED…I THOUGHT…AND CARRIED AS IF ON A WAVE OF WORDS AND DOINGS…LIFE AND DEATH…SO POWERFUL AS TO TSUNAMI THE ME OF NOW INTO OBLIVION
HOPING FOR THAT I SUPPOSE
AN ANNIHILATION OF THIS CURRENT CONFIGURATION OF ME
INSTEAD…HERE REMAINS ALL OF MY ME-NESS
NOW BATTERED, NAKED, DRIPPING WET AND SHIVERING AS THE WAVE RETREATS
ME- STANDING STRONGER SOMEHOW FOR HAVING BEEN TAKEN ON THAT RIDE
There and back again. It is all grace.