(refer to p 26-27)
Ok. You mean to tell me I can’t hide? I am a full statement of my being in every moment–every interaction? My partner or my enemy senses all of me whether they know it or not? Do you mean to tell me, that the part of me I keep from almost anybody is being picked up on by everybody…. even the dog??? Wait, I thought I was guarded? Safe? Because everyone’s picking up on my vibrations and I can’t just switch my vibrations on and off at will, you mean I am completely exposed and vulnerable right now!!?? Oh no! Holy shit, what’ll I do… what’ll I do… wait…
….Hhheeeeyyyy, it’s not so bad. I am naked. Transparent. I am who I am. I can’t control how other people perceive me. Wow, I don’t have to do so much. Wait… can I relllaaax? Oh wow. How liberating… I don’t have to keep building and repairing the levy to hold the floodwaters back, because I can swim.
My Yoga teacher and one of my heroes Ti Harmony (openheartyogaschool.com) said something (among many things) that truly changed my life. He said, “Don’t teach yoga. Just share your energy.” Another good yoga teacher/mentor/friend of mine Bryan Carey (patanjalisplace.com) told me “your energy is very disarming for people”. …Whoa… guys… just my energy? You mean, I don’t have to do anything? Just be around people and they do what I had been trying to make them do, relax and open up???
Entertaining these ideas paired with a new practice of loving myself more, I started receiving statements like these more and more….and they began to make sense to me at a cellular level. I was getting really in tune with my energy and others’, and it definitely made me want to clean up my act. If they pick up on my energy, I’d better come clean so I can be real with people. And when I’d get anxious, I would trust for once that I don’t have to do anything except BE my incarnation. I have really great karma. I’m a loving being. I’m being guided. It’s all energy. Trust. Trust. And I began to realize there was truly less and less to do.
I began to realize that people actually wanted to be around my energy. I have pushed people away or manipulated them to me for so long, because I haven’t once believed in my own greatness and potential. I have had a big heart since I was a kid, though like many, I was conditioned out of developing its potential. This and having gone through intense trauma (a plane crash, burns, PTSD) and near-death-experiences, really allows people to open up to me and share their own struggles.
When I give up all the planning and hiding of the parts I don’t want people to see (eg my skin, my tears, my loving) or only showing the parts that are palatable for my audience (eg my guitar, my compliments, my humor), naturally I am not lost in my head trying to be a future-better-me or a puffed-up-version-of-now-me. Whether it’s as a yoga teacher, blogger, radio show host, lover, child, friend, or stranger, if I trust that my heart’s energy is all I need to concern myself with and that at the deepest level in my heart resides the Infinite, how could it not be easy and so good? I am that I am. There’s nothing to do but be here now. I can finally relax.
And that vibration is contagious.